How many decades one can see throughout his life?

The title of this post was an once very popular lines in an Hong Kong production TV drama. Ten years is indeed a long period of time, 120 months or about 480 weeks. Then how about 30 years? For 30 years people has been waiting. Waiting for the voice of conscience, if there is, from an administration on what has happened 30 years ago. Yet, in vain, sadly.

How many 30 years can one see throughout his life then? Three, at most, for most people. 30 years is a very long period of time so some people has changed their stance, because of interests or tiredness. Some said life must go on so one should not bathe in the sorrow. Some others said had there been no crack down then the country could has fallen into pieces cos things were losing control. They may be right but it was about hundreds of life. Hundreds of young life that were passionate on their country yet were ended in a brutal way by the regime that runs the country. Isn't it a tragical irony?

It is still a taboo at there even after 30 years. Let alone not just a single word of confession from the authority. There were once a naive wishful thinking that as time went by and hopefully they would improve so there would be the day of vindication but the reality is that it just went the other round. It is because they know clearly the root cause of that movement is still there. The trigger was anti-corruption but thing is getting even worse 30 years later. This provides no ground for them to retreat because it could possibly rock the legitimacy of their ruling. In a place where state leaders are inevitably wise and brilliant so impossible to be wrong, then the culprit can only be those whom against the formers.

In the quality management discipline, there is a theory saying that for any faulty quality issue to be corrected. The so-called root cause, ie., the fundamental reason, must first be identified thus a corresponding so-called corrective action, ie., the solution, can be incorporated to address the quality issue which hopefully is then resolved. If the social movement happened 30 years ago is seen as a glitch along the path of China's progress towards a sophisticated country, it was something bound to happen and not really a big deal relative to the major direction of development. The regime could has handled it in a more humane way. In the worst scenario that even if the movement was still ended in a brutal way, a sincere repent and a faithful corrective action should be able to earn the forgiveness internally and abroad.  Unfortunately the regime not only is reluctant to recognize it was their fault on the loss of those precious life but also did every effort to cover up what has happened. Suppression one over another were used to clamp the people's anger and desperate arising from the series of suppression. The regime has missed the critical timing of repent and did the opposite of the right things. It literally is pushing herself in the path of no return and towards a dead end.

The situation is a bit bizarre now because the regime is facing a dilemma that people might not easily forgive its loads of wrong-doings even if it is willing to confess now but if it goes further along the existing way of suppression. It is literally building a time bomb of its own and it is ticking.

The regime is buying time now hoping people's memory will fade out and waiting for a miracle. But will there be one?




**This post is dedicated to those people who made tremendous sacrifice on the day of May 35 in 1989 which exists only in China's official calendar.